Day 9

Fajir: 1

I was so distracted by my thoughts of catching the prayer on time

Duhur: 1

Distracted thoughts and Rushing

Asr: 1

Remembered to refocus but didn’t try enough

Maghrib: 1

Mindless

Isha: 1

Same

 

Day 8

Fajir: more than 1, not 1.5

I tried to remember to engage more deeply but didn’t keep it up

Jumua: 1/1.5

The first rakaa I was completely distracted but the second one I really engaged deeply and managed to feel my prayer

Asr: 1

Rushing

Maghrib: 1/1.5

Same thing happened as Jumua

Isha: 1

Distracted

Day 7

Fajir: 1.5

Was a lot more focused and emotionally engaged but lost it by the end of prayer

Duhur: 1

Extrememly Distracted by what’s going on around me

Asr: 1

Mindless

Maghrib: 1

Mindless

Isha: 1

Not focused

Day 6

Fajir: 1

Distracted thoughts even though I tried to refocus

Duhur: 1

Distracted thoughts

Asr: 1/1.5

In the first two rakaas was totally out of it but managed to refocus and connect during the second half

Maghrib: 1

Completely distracted and mindless

Isha: 1

Day 4

Fajir: 1

Had a short spurt of trying to engage emotionally but didn’t last

Duhur: 1

Generally distracted

Asr: 1

Felt an emotional connection but very short and at the end

Maghrib: 1

Distracted by what’s happening around me although I did attempt to refocus a bit

Isha: 1

Distracted and Mindless

 

Day 2

Fajir: 1.5

Was trying really hard to get my focus in but was more distracted than yesterday

Duhur: 1

Distracted

Asr: 1

Rushing

Maghrib: 1

Distracted by what’s going on around me

Isha: 1

Distracted thoughts

Day 1 – Shabaan

Beginning a new record for Shabaan …

Fajir: 2

I was a lot more invested and engaged, especially when I reminded myself that I was aiming not to have any 1s today and thought about my shortcomings

Jumua: 1.5

Engaged during the recitation but got distracted by what’s going on around me

Asr: 1.5

Effectively refocused a couple times but did also get distracted. When I did refocus though I could get to a good point

Maghrib: 1ish

I think I did slightly better than 1 here because I reminded myself to refocus more often but even when I did I found it difficult to reengage emotionally/spiritually. It was like my brain was tired or didn’t want to try

Isha: 1.5

I did better than Maghrib but not quite as well as Asr at refocusing. I paid more attention to the recitation and was again more engaged but definitely felt like I had no stamina to get my head and heart in the prayer

 

… I noticed actually that as the day wore on, I was having a harder time keeping focus or reentering into the prayer wholly. Seems I don’t have enough spiritual stamina …